why is it that we randomly doubt our needs for sleep meds and attempt to sleep without them? you’d think that one or two times of waking up after two or three hours after being “so tired” that surely we would sleep through the night would be enough of a lesson, but no, for some reason we insist on testing out this random hypothesis every few months. View full article »
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i’ve often wondered if it is possible to actually run away from nothing or if then by definition what you are doing then becomes something else. do you have to be pursued by something in order to flee? do you just assume that there is something there when you find yourself running even though you can’t remember what it was that first made you think that you were being chased? View full article »
fly away little one
you have learned so well
to spread your wings
and take off
within your own mind View full article »
there are times that sorrow and grief settle over our shoulders like a heavy wool coat in the middle of the summer. it catches us by surprise sometimes…when we’re off dealing with completely different issues and then something triggers. the questions inside that start coming…the dialogue that is overheard is heartbreaking. View full article »
some friends of ours performed as part of an event for a group that works to raise money and awareness for human trafficking and the child sex trade…sometimes it’s hard when people are talking about that kind of thing to keep quiet. View full article »
i just don’t understand why things can’t be simple. if i had my way life would come with not only a guidebook, but also a point by point outline for every bit of it. i don’t like change, and i really don’t like it when you realize that things are different than you thought they were. even just the suggestion of that tends to lead me to panic. View full article »
it’s that kind of sense where you can start to feel the ground shake just a tiny bit and you know that a train is coming (or a cattle stampede if you prefer images from the wild west). it’s so slight that you can dismiss it as nothing and can even convince yourself that you didn’t feel anything, but if you’re standing around when the train goes by, you’ll remember the feeling. a premonition…the kind of knowing that you only half know before and only sometimes fully know after. View full article »
just a few thoughts before the sleep meds kick in:
- abandonment issues suck–being abandoned in your present day life and then having that trigger the past abandonment issues on top of the present day shit is beyond sucky
- sometimes i wonder if there will ever be something that doesn’t make us think about our family of origin View full article »
we’ve caught glimpses of anna in the past little while. such sightings have been rare recently, but even as the glimpses give us hope we can’t seem to hold onto even the tiniest bit of it. we question whether she’s even really there to start with…then we question whether she was around a while back…then we question whether she was around just now. View full article »
my church holds a night of healing prayer once a month, and in the realm of church ministries of this type they tend to be extraordinarily sensitive to issues that christian culture trods upon on a regular basis. one of our soap box deals is that we want to be a voice for people with a background like us…the severely abused more often than not are a voiceless people, despite what we believe to be a wealth of information and understanding that their voice could bring to others. View full article »
